Nothing is as it seems

[athelstanent]

Have you ever found out that many ideas you had about the world were based on some sitcom you can't even remember and if you saw it again would be so horrifying to watch you could not last five minutes? So it turns out the gyms are not filled with jocks that will make fun of you. Turns out many many people go to bars and like it, even really rich people. The rich people just expect better service. People are having lots of guilt free sex, but most don't talk about it. You can't drink lots of caffeine in the evening and get to sleep. Too much sugar will make you tired. Exercise is all a matter of doing it and you'll feel better for it if you can keep it up for more than one day in a row. There is a privileged class, but its just because they have lots of money. There are the disadvantaged, but most could pull out of it if they worked at it. People respect me, I do a good job, some people love me for who I am. When will I love myself just the same? I'm working on it.

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[clauditorium.livejournal.com]

One thing I learned about loving myself is that it won't happen overnight. So I hope you don't beat yourself over the fact that you don't love yourself very much. That would be like a wounded man beating himself because his wound isn't healing fast enough, and thereby making it worse.
The very fact that you're working on it constitutes progress.

Another thing I learned:
Once I'd diagnosed myself with self-loathing, I filed it away and just accepted that it was part of me. Wrong. I'm in therapy, and the psychiatrist pointed out that I spoke a lot about always having disliked myself, when, based on what he'd observed, I didn't anymore. It was very refreshing to realize that he was right.

[athelstan.livejournal.com]

Thank you for all that you said in my many posts. I'll sum it all up here with a big thank you.

What surprises me the most is that the realization that all the things about the world that turned out to not be true could also be true about myself...

see my next post for more about this. You inspired the post.