Welcome Back

I'm back. All of me. Let me explain. When I accepted my self as being gay I could not reconcile myself with being a Christian. I knew to be happy I would need to be accepting of myself completely. So I got rid of my faith. My faith was two voices I talked with in my head. They were the devil and god. They validated me, tempted me, inspired me, they were everything to me. I considered my self to be very spiritual and I simply got rid of it. What I realized tonight in therapy was the voices I silenced was/is myself. The validation, the inspiration and the faith to be who I wanted to be has been there the entire time. Even as a young child I thought they were aliens renting space in my mind... I want to welcome them back. I want to be myself, I really missed them. They made me vibrant. It's overwhelming right now.

It's good to be me again.