Panic

Went to a PDX fur gathering, I was okay until about 10-12 people showed up. That's when the anxiety hit. I feel left out, but I'm too scared to chat with people. Makes me wonder how I ever got to know anyone. I've never met someone at a party and got to know them. I'm fine with 5-8 people, as long as I know some of them. I try and just "be myself" but I'm never really sure of who I am or what I want. Groups just make me worse. Don't worry, I don't get the attacks when I'm in crowds, just groups of people I meeting with.