I'm the odd duck other people want to have around.... don't take it so negatively

[athelstanent]

Today at work I messed up. In the scale from "reformatting 20,000 machines possibly killing some people" to "Typo" this was a 3. I shat myself and spun up. Thing was my boss was cool, a member of my team sorted the first bit, and when dog piling on remediating 90 machines we were all joking.

So I was surrounded by positive, there were a few mitigating things to change to help this from not happening again, and I'm still filled with a bunch of desire to hate myself to make up for it. I don't need to. Can't shake it... I'm working on it.

Compared to previous this is monumental progress.

Comments

[famsel]

For me to be able to rid myself of this guilt I had to first actually admit deep down that this guilt actually existed before I could attack the real reasons as to why I was burying myself in it

[athelstanent]

Thank you. That feels like it may be true. I'll do some exploring.