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[athelstanent]

Some days it's not worth it to try and communicate to the outside world.

I'm sure I could get past this shit mood, where I know my rule set for self is messed up because the only logical conclusion is I am broken (try to not be rude to others with my jagged edges), by connecting my emotions up, letting out the pain and flustration and crying, and then be in a better mood with no options.

Until deciding what I want and sharing it with others does not seem like a dare, I need to keep trying.