I used to think I was special and above other people.... I was very wrong

With the current stonks and people crushing hedge fund managers it made me think about what happened growing up. I don't think any one in my biological family ever questioned that there were those who were worthy and those who were not. The entire family seemed to be about projecting they were not common folk.

I apologize for doing everything I could to elevate and separate myself. Looking back I had to be better than everyone else to justify just liking what I liked. I had to know everything. I was special. Realizing now I'm not special. I got lucky getting into computers and making good money. I also just happened to get in at a time where reading the manual and setting up things like it said was enough. Currently I am tasked with coming up with solutions to problems that aren't in manuals and how-tos. I'm kind of crap at it but getting better.

Basically can we keep a market economy, but cap it so that those rich enough can change the rules, and lift up the bottom. I know so many people who could do amazing things but only for 2 or three days a week. They are largely SOL because everything must be 40, 60, 80 hour weeks.... I think we can make sure people have shelter, food, and healthcare and still find way to make sure people engage with society in meaningful ways.

Oh, go find other people talking about these things to really understand things. I'm just stepping through all of this trying to figure it out.

I just want to walk away from this Omelas we live in and just don't know how.