The Nature of What is Not Evil

Success is not evil. Enjoying the rewards of hard labor is not evil.

Let me explain. As I stated before I'm starting therapy and after two sessions, things are going well. So far we are working on the idea that I've was shamed too much growing up and I need to deal with that. I thought I had worked out all of the demons of childhood. Not true, I've most come to terms with my parents divorce and how my parents behaved after that. Well there is nine years before the divorce that needs to be dealt with. Part of that is shame, and how I internalized the shame my parents gave to me. Now a little shame is not bad. Shame can be healthy. Yet, when one is given so much shame that they shame themselves for anything and everything they do as adults it is a bad thing.

The opening thoughts are things I shame myself about. That I can not enjoy my house and what I buy. That would be evil. Worse is seeing my dad ignore my brother and I as he let his hobbies of model trains and drums consume his time. There was no balance.

In other news, those breathe strips for your nose work wonders for me. I breathed though both nostrils all night long.