BurleyBoar

Thanks for the detailed response. I'm just sorting out how I feel about the furry fandom in general as someone who felt at the periphery of it (in fact, I always felt at the periphery of everything, forced or not). Furry-ness was a general extension of monsterhood for me, a framework for which I understood how I didn't fit in and a tool for power when I felt utterly powerless. Now as an adult working to properly unpack this trauma, this framework is useless and even problematic for me so I want to change it, incorporate something familiar in a new light. Problem is I can't find a self that aticks. My kudu-"self" felt like more of a muse with which I could discuss the malaise of suburbia. And so I asked the question