One of those days
Apr. 8th, 2024 11:00 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
athelstanentWhere I wonder when will my savior arrive, tell me who I am and what to do and when I do those things I find satisfaction and contentment in my efforts in my place in this world.
*sighs*
I'm an odd duck raised by other odd ducks who told me to conform. Why do I have to be different? Why was I punished for trying to obsess on things?
How do I find my place? Choose my place? Find things I enjoy? Know my effort to enjoy things is correct...
All of this is me screaming at the void that if I pick anything then it must be wrong. The only way to make what I pick if I am the only person in the universe. So far therapy has taught me to keep being emotional and to honor my emotions to deal with this.
Fuck this is my Monday emotions after a chill weekend.
Bonus - at least this isn't being put on FaceBook. No one fucking understands how to choose what one likes when one was abused for their choices growing up.
*sighs*
I'm an odd duck raised by other odd ducks who told me to conform. Why do I have to be different? Why was I punished for trying to obsess on things?
How do I find my place? Choose my place? Find things I enjoy? Know my effort to enjoy things is correct...
All of this is me screaming at the void that if I pick anything then it must be wrong. The only way to make what I pick if I am the only person in the universe. So far therapy has taught me to keep being emotional and to honor my emotions to deal with this.
Fuck this is my Monday emotions after a chill weekend.
Bonus - at least this isn't being put on FaceBook. No one fucking understands how to choose what one likes when one was abused for their choices growing up.
