It's the day before I would drive down to FC. Every time I decide not to go, my anxiety melts away. Then I relax and think "Wow, I would love to go to FC." Then the anxiety kicks in again. Everyone I've talked with about this says that I should just go, relax and be myself. Ah, being myself is the most anxiety provoking thing for me to do. It all stems from a low or negative self-esteem. At this point I'm undecided about going to FC. I do not want to disappoint people who were looking forward to seeing me. I also do not want anxiety so large that it causes me to break down from it. I did figure I should explain it for everyone.