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athelstanent) wrote2006-03-21 08:20 am
athelstanent) wrote2006-03-21 08:20 am
Validate me!
From my first LJ post, June 19, 2003
"Once I get the hang of this expect to hear all about my triumphs, defeats and feelings."
Well I guess it is ok to talk about the not so good things in my life.
My therapy sessions are going well. I found out something interesting last night. I've been doing the right things to get rid of the demons inside of me that bring me down. It turns out I have more than I thought. My therapist is working on the idea that I was traumatized as a kid. I was neglected. I never went hungry, I was never physically abused, and I never had "bad parents" (turns out they were not great either.) So I was traumatized as a kid and I need to address the traumas so I can nurture my younger selves. This is standard therapy and has helped many people. I've therapied myself many times addressing many of the issues that I did not like as a child. A good example would be my parents divorce. I can remember that it happened, but I don't relive the emotional trauma every time I do. What kind of scares me is the huge number of crappy episodes I still hang on to. All of the neglect and shame forms a group of voices at my core. Those voices tell me I'm worthless. I always figured that I would take care of all of them at once. Turns out I need to fight them one at a time.
"Once I get the hang of this expect to hear all about my triumphs, defeats and feelings."
Well I guess it is ok to talk about the not so good things in my life.
My therapy sessions are going well. I found out something interesting last night. I've been doing the right things to get rid of the demons inside of me that bring me down. It turns out I have more than I thought. My therapist is working on the idea that I was traumatized as a kid. I was neglected. I never went hungry, I was never physically abused, and I never had "bad parents" (turns out they were not great either.) So I was traumatized as a kid and I need to address the traumas so I can nurture my younger selves. This is standard therapy and has helped many people. I've therapied myself many times addressing many of the issues that I did not like as a child. A good example would be my parents divorce. I can remember that it happened, but I don't relive the emotional trauma every time I do. What kind of scares me is the huge number of crappy episodes I still hang on to. All of the neglect and shame forms a group of voices at my core. Those voices tell me I'm worthless. I always figured that I would take care of all of them at once. Turns out I need to fight them one at a time.
Re: Memories and trauma